SAMTRAN

Some things don’t change

Hey Tumblr…it’s been an entire semester and I look pretty much the same.

So much has happened to me this past semester that I don’t even know where to start. I guess the biggest change in my life was joining a sorority, specifically Sigmas. Although I can’t exactly share with you all what happened, I can honestly say that the experience itself was worthwhile and extremely memorable.

I know a lot of people were shocked when they found out that I joined a sorority. The decision is so out of character for me. How can someone who wears a T-shirt almost every day, who doesn’t wear makeup on a daily basis, who care greatly about school, who plays stupid online video games, who is eccentric, or who trolls everyone when the opportunity presents itself ever fit in, let alone WANT to join a sorority? I mean, joining Sigmas wasn’t the first thing on my mind entering college. I guess you can say I was somewhat influenced by my cousin Tiffany…but the point is, yes I did join a sorority, and it’s actual not that out of my character at all.

I don’t think I’ve changed as a person. I still dress the same, act the same, and have my priorities straight. Yes, maybe I go out more often (and by often, that really means not that often)…but isn’t that what college is for? To experience things? To do stuff that you wouldn’t dare do once you’re out in the real world when you have to live life as an adult? Even if I didn’t join Sigmas, I already know that I would have tried to go out more and experience things on my own. If you knew me from before, you know that my motto has always been to “live life for the experience.”

Actually, Sigmas has already helped me a lot. Remember how I would stress about everything and constantly be bitter because I always felt overwhelemed? Or how I didn’t even like hanging out because I would have some dumb homework assignment due that would have only taken an hour or so to complete? I’m not like that anymore. I feel like I can do anything, and have more of a social life at the same time. I’ve learned that I shouldn’t stress about everything…I’ve learned how to live life for once.

Trust me when I say I’m not a crazy party animal. The people here at UT know that I’m not into going downtown every weekend or drinking alcohol every chance I get. Stop judging me for the worst based off my pictures on Facebook. Obviously people take pictures when people go out, not when they’re in their room or at the library studying. Haha I may sound upset right now, but I promise I’m not. It’s fine to say that I go out more or that I’m dressing in more skanky clothing when I go out because it’s true. I know it’s weird…it’s still weird for me, but I just don’t want anyone to think that I’ve changed as a person. I’m still a weird, yet sometimes scary bitch. Promise.

Before I end this, I also just want to say that I’ve met a ton of great people here. I’ve met people that will forever have my back…people that I can confide in and be happy with. But even though there are new people in my life,you guys will still be part of it too…even if it may seem that I am more MIA than usual.

So to….
My drunk girls - Aurorae, Melissa, Michelle, Christine, Crystal
Along with my main squeezes - Andy, James, Vincent, Daniel, Henry…
And all you other mother fuckers that I can’t think of cause it’s 4 am.

I love you guys.